Post #4 - is there always a point..

**Its said that everything in the end has a purpose. Does that mean when we die we will know our sole purpose. Could it involve the change in someone else's life to push them higher in the world, or to wake people up and open their eyes to the reality of the world we live in...**

         Who's to say what anyone, even their own, purpose is in life...

See things at home are tense, it reminds me of a clients shoulders i had for massage once, i couldn't believe the tension she carried and still carries..
My sister moved in for the time being, with her husband and 3 kids. Which is awesome because i get to see my nieces and nephew every day. I know its hard for them but right now i think they're well off and it can give them the chance to get on their feet.
But usually when you're trying to get back onto your own feet, you push down on some one to get there..
I feel so sad that my awesome budgeting and saving skills got ruined this month because of buying  literally only milk and bread for 2 weeks.. I work long hours to get this salary to save up to go work for Steiner next year - but the way things are going now.. Well, to put it really nicely, its not going to happen...


                   *""Not going to happen""*
 - the words are like violent clouds of smoke blowing into my eyes causing them to sting, and suffocating me and burning my throught - from my tree of dreams, as flames engulf the small pieces of paper.
Eventually I will re-write the dreams that turned to ashes and put them back onto my tree and they will become true..


I've been told countless times that I'm strong enough, that i can don it.. Negative thinking will definitely get me no where and the easy way out is exactly what it says "cheating" - taking short cuts in a life that must be lived fully.

Rabbit in the picture over there is from one of my many favorite movies "Igor" Its a rabbit that just doesn't die no matter what he tries - he just cant die, but he wants to.. I think we should all be the opposite... We can die, its simple and so easy that its frightening - but we should fight to live, do everything we can to survive




Its been a while since I posted - but seeing as no one reads there - I'm okay with it.. This just makes thing easier for me to come with, because maybe someone will brows across it, and maybe some one will say 
"well hey, that's something I'll start saying to myself" Just because they can relate.... 


That's all now I suppose - until next time when I feel the need to actually blog a bit :P


My point here being - that no matter what, there is a point to some thing - even when you dont see it. Things we look for are usually hidden in plain sight.